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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

until when?

Hello..haha...i know..i havent been writing in this blog for a while..been busy with the other one..dekat frenster..Guess where i am now? dekat bilik jaksa!!hhahaha...yup..i never really targeted to be one..its a pretty big responsibility..plus you have to have your own programme,and your studies..well u have to be able to manage your time wisely..takot!! dah nak dekat final ni, and belum habes stadi lagi..huuhuh i can hear my parents telling me to cut down on the extra curricular activites...

im having a conflict actually..regarding my feelings..concerning my love life..love is the most compicated thing huh? U can compare it with microbiology and physics and statistics or whatever..those are easy if u read the manual..but love is all about exploring your inner feelings..and asking urself what u really want..what u expect in ur life(which u cant really expect) and all about finding out what suits u and what doesnt..

sometimes im such a good gerl at heart..im so concerned about peoples feelings that my own desires are left out of the picture..the question is..until when?

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

Bz week?da..

Okay so here i am again sitting in front of pc # 6 at kustif .(cc at pusaneka..UKM)

Life has changed so much yet i dont feel that different.People say time will heal the wounds but for me im still waiting for the chance to sit back and smile and relax without worrying about a single thing in this world. Sigh

Last friday after kuliah fizik asas me and dibah went to uo..makan dengan ezul and the geng then kitorang g c dl nota kuliah..HAih susah betol nak carik nota prof ikram..mana ntah dia letak last2 giv up kol 1.30 gi semahyang kat surau uo(ungku omar)...caught a bus to komuter where ezul and the geng were waiting then we all went to mid to watch the cave..cita laina ada tapi dibah taknak tengok pasai dia takot..kitorang ingat nak tengok the maid..memule dibah ok je nak tengok tupon lepas aku janji nak belanja dia tengok wayang and wan janji belanja dia air dalam wayang les2 tak jadik pasai dia gadoh ngan wan..tapi the cave orait le..walaupon cita dia mepek and tak kenal 1 pon pelakon dia..

but before 5(tgk wayang) kitorang main bowling satu frame..me..syakir..ezul and dibah..wan taknak main..tak ghetila konon bosan tol mamat tu..letak nama aku "datin" kat monitor tu kuang asam..datin pon datinla asal aku tak kalah.eizul menang banyak siot strike aku num 2 then syakir and then dibah .dibah relax giler baling bola memang pelan and slow tak hengat tapi strike tak puas ati tol..ehe..

Malas sebenarnya nak update blog ni.

Then lepas main,tgk wayang and semayang magrib( i put my bag dekat surau..si dibah aja)...jalan2 kejap then diorang anta sampai komuter sebab dibah nak tunggu kawan dia.so ezul and the gend tinggal dengan dibah and i headed for sentral where angah was waiting.balik sesama ngan angah then balik2 teros jadik bibik kemas umah susah tol takda orang gaji ni mama ni degil tol taknak amik orang gaji. Ayah takda...that friday morning dia dah datang my college bagi duit then dia pergi seremban ada kem kepimpinan umno dekat ulu sepri.sampai i balik ukm hari ahad pon ayah tak balek lagik.ANa pon last week balik.along pon.

that saturday night kitorang makan dekat nite circle hehe gerls nite out.mama along angah me ana and muna which makes it 6( I wish i had more siblings).duduk depan tv so leh tgk anugerah era.(sharifah amani comel sangat).depan kitorang ni ada satu meja penoh dengan mamat2 ni.dok pandang2..per aku ni tak pakai baju ke hapa korang nak pandang2? ana kata.."akak diorang minat akak"..once again..i sigh...hati keringla katakan....seriously! ever since muaz i really takda nafsu dekat laki.kalau ada pon tak sama.ntahla..susah nak cakap.naik giler macam ni.dah try memacam(tingggal mandi bunga je lom)..tapi still macam ni gak..sapala bakal suami aku.(atau aku takkan berkawen?tidak!!!!!aku tak rela!!)

Angah and along pon lom kawen..maybe the gerls in my family sme hati kering kot?ehe.gasakla.asal aku happy.masalahnya aku tak hapy! kat umah okla happy ada family.kat sini kat ukm kekadang rasa bosan tahap maks gile!!bilerla nak ada balak ni..sedeyhnya.comments anyone?

Posted at 07:49 pm by nahwal
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Monday, July 11, 2005

UKM here I come!

Wokeyh..so im a student of UKM now..officially a mahasiswi on 7th of July 2005 after the majlis ikrar..during rehearsal i was like so sad cause i was finally a university student..been thru so much and busted my ass in matriks and im so happy and sad and excited at the same time and it was so overwhelming...

Radhwa, Miza, Eizul, Fitri PPI, Osman, Anak uncle shamsudin (Feni) pun ada...sapa agi aa..uh..wani kawan fikri..ramai aaa...fawaz pon ada...even jason and my ..get this! X! yup..dr. zohdy...he got medic..so he'll be studying at kampus KL..mas anis, fairuz alia got medic too...the geniuses...i met madyt!! shes taking some kind of radiology course...my roomate is ok..shes an stpm holder,call her Kak Ila, short for Nabila, and shes an FPI student(Fakukti PEngajian Islam)...From pahang..
Im close with ADibah, my coursemate, and an X KMK student, Nurul Hajar. Lifes here is ok..

I got a new college..Kolej kausar but the name's changed already and its called Kolej Za'ba now. I like Za' ba better..Kausar is so.."What the hell is kausar?" new college..and the seniors are mostly in their second year...I met my senior at KMK..abang ayuk but his real name is hariz..a real joker...laughs at anything he says..class is cool!!! everyday got one or 2 class only except on wednesday,got three. and my basic food science lecturer, prof salam is totally hilarious...i mean..he's pile,hard, deep shit!! hahaha...he says B.Sc mean Bull shit.M.Sc is More Shit, and Ph.D is pile, hard, deep shit! so he uses the S word alot..funny prof..

the food at the kafes ok..havent eaten much of it cause got fri food for orientation..
Um..what else are...still dont feel completely at home here...Got to give some time of getting used to thuis big environment..im taking persatuan as my KoK..

what else what else..i dunno my minds a blank..

Jack is at home.Hopefully muna feeds him enuf everyday...JAcks my cute adorable fat cat...The day i left for UKM, i set my hp alarm to 6 am..but the bat went dead..completely during the night, and in the morning jack hopped on my bed and bit my arm..and i was.."Jack..let me sleep" and then i tot i was late cause registration was at 8, and i dont wanna be late, so i jumped off my bed and looked at my watch and it was 6.00 o'clock sharp! Jack is like super cat or something..and i hugged him and said" Jack..thanks for waking me up!" haha..windu jack...

the other day ada mamat indon pekerja kat kolej tu pegi angkat kucing guna sebelah telinga ee jahat betol..then i marah dia i kata jangan aa pegang dia macam tu jahat2~~...

class today is at 12..have nothing interesting to say..i only updated my blog cause shiraz yang suroh..haa..shiraz hang puas hati tak aku dah update ni..lepas ni lama lagi aku tak update...haha..ciaw..

Posted at 08:07 pm by nahwal
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Thursday, June 23, 2005

UKM here i come!!

Okies....my life is taking a new turn right now...i got into ukm! sains makanan dan pemakanan....woohooo!!! takleh lama2..just wanted to post that..k gtg!

Posted at 09:44 pm by nahwal
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Monday, June 06, 2005

eat all alone....

so like im working right now....Im supposed to help ayah dekat kelab warga emas...with his library and i hav to catalog all the books and the problem is that i dont know how so im at the state library right now...kursus seminggu...3 days dekat katalog and 2 days dekat edaran..and these people..i mean the librarians here they have the most easiest job on earth...all they do is come at 8.20 (today i came at 8 cause i tot work starts at 8) and then thy catalog th books and then at 10 they have morning break for half an hpur and then more books and then at 12.45 everyones out to lunch and its 2.15 and no ones working cause thyre so stuffed they can barely move themselvs and by 4.0 everyones rushing thru the door to go home...talk about no pressure!!! i mean i can seriously consider being a librarian..yup..me...the books...nah..wayyyyy too boring...tak challenging langsung..but in a way it is pleasing to do things like that everyday.. this morning wani told me result ipta dah kuar but i cek tadi takda pon so bummer...i mintak dietetic dekat ukm and hopefully dapatla... ok takleh lama2...nanti ada makcik2 kat sini marah...ehe..i ate luch all alone which was pretty sad..oh and yesterday i tunggu my dad dari pukul 5 sampai 6.30.he had a meting so i geram i pergi kompleks jalan kaki and nak amik cab dah...ayah marrah kejap but i was too...iwas furious and dia leh siap wat lawak lagi geram tol sabar je la.... mama takda kursus dua minggu di melaka and jitra...sob...along balik umah ana pon and angah takda so i have to be the housekper..whatever..i enjoy doing all those housework but sometimes i nd some help too when are tose 2 sisters of mine gonna grow up?? ok i really gotta go.

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